Made
your life’s most important decision and finally found your love. Married them
and started to live like royalty. This is what you always dreamed of. Roaming new
places, made new friends, and buy expensive goodies for fun. New dresses, news
shoes, new perfumes, and gadgets add to the overloaded junk you own. The blame
is not on you though. Surrounded by the posh circle of friends, would keep
anyone’s nose in the air.
However
you do see the flip side of that royal coin. Hate to be alone for the conscience
is ridiculously mean to you. So you watch other people fight and cry on TV in
the name of entertainment. And unconsciously start to mimic the negative
conclusions grasped from the shows. Everyday let it weave more insecurity in
your faith.
Then
Complain about everything and everyone for you failed to understand satisfaction.
Actually satisfaction appears as only a fad for it fades out fast. Truth is: the
new wardrobe has become a stale distraction. Fight with the spouse who took off
from work to spend a day with you. Just to find an escape.
It
kills to the extent that you don’t mind talking to the people who are supposed
worthless and inferior. For you see them having that one thing you lack. The
more you talk the more it frustrates you, as the clue isn't there. Now you lower
the guard and open up a bit more. Finally the denial escapes when you accept,
“I am depressed”. The naive, no-value ‘happy people’ understands you. Thus they
try to motivate, tell you about their own failures and progress in life. Stories
of the bright side and the bright nights! Long talk about dreams being timeless
and possibilities limitless. You do feel the moment of change.
Sadly you lack the special ingredient required
to listen to someone: respect. The
only change is now you find them dumb idiots who are happy for no reason. Next
day you go to spend more money, to buy a little more of fleeting happiness
again…
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